Shame on me. I think I will never have the guts to open my FB account again.
Stupid
2012
“All I can say is … feelings cannot be rationalized” – Joseph Cheng in ISWAK
That is what he said when asked why he chose XQ over HL.
HL is perfect. Pretty and smart. But she is bland. She’s boring.
On the other hand, XQ is pathetic and dumb. She’s also clumsy and her stupidity is over the top. But man, you gotta love her persistence and determination to get his attention.
She may be stupid. But at least, she’s “not that stupid” to be in a relationship with someone she doesn’t like.
She’d rather be left alone and be sad.
She’s the perfect example of a faithful lover.
In one of the episodes, she drove a pregnant woman to the hospital even if she doesn’t know how to drive.
She doesn’t have a driver’s license! Talk about stupidity at its highest level.
She could have called an ambulance. Or called a doctor. Or asked the men around to drive for them. Or called a taxi.
There are too many options but she picked the most dangerous one.
I couldn’t look at the screen when Joe was furious and yelling at her.
“Are you an idiot?! What if you killed the woman and her baby? Can you live with that?!”
Gosh. I couldn’t take it. She just cried and said she was sorry. What the … ?!
Good thing the episode has a nice ending. I thought I was going to have a heart attack!
Joe embraced her and said “thank God, you are okay.”
Hey, that’s the only sad part. Most of the scenes are extremely funny.
I simply love the Taiwanese version of Itazura na Kiss.
More intense and better kisses. LOLz.
All episodes of ISWAK done.
Now, back to work!
Untitled
2012
I’m a huge fan of Itazura na Kiss so I can’t help but compare Korean (Playful Kiss) versus Taiwanese (It Started with a Kiss) version. I think the latter is funnier and more realistic. Plus I fell in love with Joe Cheng. He’s so adorable. He reminds me of someone. They have the same eyes and eyebrows, body-built, and length of hair.
Yes, blogmates. I have a crush. After 4 years of being isolated from the male species (hahaha!), I have a crush. This time in the form of a real human being. This time, I am not in love with a virtual person, or an anime character, or a Korean actor. But this time is worse because he does not even know my name. I’m not saying that those Korean actors know me. All I’m saying is I’m stupid.
Well, I’m not in love. It’s just a crush. And my friends are not very supportive because we don’t know him at all. We don’t have common friends. He might be a criminal or worse he already has a girlfriend. That’s right, blogmates. It would be better for him to be a criminal than to be taken. LOLz. Joke.
Anyway, for the entire month of January, I’m busy trying to forget about him. What the .. ?! I’m so stupid. I went out with friends and tried my best to occupy my mind with other things like reading and watching all episodes of It Started with a Kiss.
Are you familiar with the plot? A girl is madly in love with someone who can’t like her back. For 5 years, she did everything to win his heart and almost ended up having her heart broken. Can you imagine the embarrassing moments she had to endure? It’s hilarious. I can’t bare to see some of the scenes because, blogmates, S is a woman. I feel embarrassed for her. Even if it’s just a drama.
I think that is the major difference between men and women. You can court a girl even if she doesn’t like you and yet there is still a possibility of winning her heart. But men. *Shrug* You can’t change a man’s mind. If he’s not interested then he’s not. But the girl in the story was able to do it. She won his heart … after FIVE YEARS! Haha! It’s one of the best love stories for me. Better than The Notebook and 50 First Dates. Just my opinion.
Here is something you ought to know. I asked J if it’s acceptable for a woman to court a man. She’s a modern lady who has a masteral degree in Men and Relationships. (Hahaha! I love you friend!) She said it’s dangerous. He might not reject you but might take advantage of the situation. Or, he might like you too but won’t see you as the future mother of his kids. Mmmm … that makes sense.
In a foul mood
2011
What’s the use of a good page rank if I won’t be earning from it? The recent Google PR upgrade is useless and I waited 2 years for this crap. I want to convince myself that somehow I’m going to benefit from my PR4 but right now, it seems that the whole universe world wide web conspired so I won’t get anything from it.
I’m so annoyed. Why are things always difficult for me? Why are they always rejecting my blogs? They never run out of reasons. I should have given up on them years ago. I have to look for other ways to monetize this blog.
On a lighter note, I thought I was late again in my Odesk deadline. So, before my boss start to preach about how important it is to meet the turn around time, I sent them an email saying something like:
- I know the report is late again. And I also know that there are no acceptable reasons so I won’t explain. I just want to let you know that the source which you have provided to me is already obsolete. -
Surprisingly, they said I did a great job and that I am actually a day ahead of due date. I forgot that MNL is 13 hours ahead of NY. So, if the articles’ due date is Sunday night, that means Monday noon. Until now, I still can’t understand how time zone works or what it means. Whatever. I’m happy because they said they are giving me a permanent job
But I’m still in a foul mood …
Annoyed with so many things but I am mostly annoyed at myself. I now realized that my greatest enemy is myself. I am already in a stage where I can earn $300 a week but for some reason, I’m just too lazy to finish the tasks. What’s wrong with me? I want to earn more but my body is uncooperative. I hate myself.
just another day
2011
i woke up this morning and was disappointed to read a notification email from odesk. one of my online employers ended my blogging contract. sad 
he said they had to put the project on hold. this means that they will no longer send the sample products and that my weekly earnings will also decrease.
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i still have 10 other contracts in odesk but that was what i considered the best employer i ever had. now i’m getting paranoid. was i not good enough for the job? they said they’ll be in touch but somehow, i felt like it was just their polite way of saying that they are now looking for a new blogger who has the ability to meet their expectations.
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i wanted the sadness to linger long enough for me to really feel it. but today is such a happy day, even the drizzly weather failed to dampen my mood. it seems that the whole universe conspired to help me get everything i want for the day. yup, that’s right. today, i got everything i wanted and the day isn’t over yet. i feel that the best is yet to come 
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after more than a month of being “AWOL” my former boss sent me an email asking if i still have a plan to submit a resignation letter. for me, it’s a good news. the bosses are asking. does it mean that they care? although, i’ve already brainwashed the sane part of my mind that it doesn’t matter whether i’m awol or not, something inside of me is telling me to take this last chance to do the right thing.
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i have until tomorrow to decide. by monday, my decision should be finalized. i’m not stupid. i know and i understand the difference between right and wrong. i know that i’m being given one more chance to correct whatever needs to be corrected. i’m not stupid. but i’m one hell of a stubborn person.
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i have a new dress from Juana. it’s a filipino brand that resembles dresses and tops from zara. the designs are incredibly smart and elegant. i love it and i want to buy more. i’m gonna wear it tomorrow for hakob’s christening. but when tried it on and my mother saw it, she said “ano ka bata?!” hahahaha! she doesn’t know what is “in style” today. or maybe it’s really me who is baduy? haha!
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i have a new theme. dear diary. i hope you noticed. i promised myself that i’m gonna stick with thesis forever but i can’t help it. i just have to experience dear diary. i’ve been wanting a notebook theme for as long as i can remember and this one’s almost perfect. as i’ve said, i just wanna taste this. and then after a couple of weeks i’m going back to thesis.
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i feel that another contract is gonna end soon. the one who gave me a bonus right after the two hours i spent for their SEO campaign. i admit. it’s going to be my fault, if ever. i haven’t been exerting much effort for the project. the contract is for 40 hours a week and so far, i’ve only worked 3 hours since monday. do you want to know what SEO specialists do? We, They create backlinks by leaving relevant comments in forums and do-follow blogs.
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from the moment i opened my eyes this morning, i’ve been really thankful. there are also a few things to worry about but that’s just normal. the thing that concerns me most as of this moment is if my blue dress is going to look good on me. i don’t want to look glamorous. i want everything plain and simple. i’ll try to upload a picture when i find time.