No matter how hard I try to be nice and kind, it seems that there will always be people whom I will never like and will always hate. I know, I know! This is just a waste of time, energy and emotion but I need to update this blog and right now all I can think about is their nastiness and how self-centered and mean they are. Yeah, yeah! Christianity is about love and forgiveness but for heaven’s sake, they never asked to be forgiven but on the contrary, they are very proud of their wrongdoings.

As I’ve said, this is just a waste of everything so read at your own peril.

• Evil step sister she’s worse than Grizella and Anastasia. Sometimes, I’d like to think she is the wife of Satan. Her true colors came out when our father passed away. I was 19 and she was 45 at that time. She’s an old witch who wanted literally everything including my personal belongings such as clothes, school records, etc. She’s a crazy b*tch, y’know. She burned my birth certificate for purposes that you can only see on TV dramas. What an idiot! That story is so cheap, I am ashamed of it. It’s annoying because even if I don’t want to think about that dark past, I am still having nightmares about her. I still see her in my dreams. Sometimes, I am so scared and then there are times when I am so angry.
• Jungle Man I will forever hate this person. I can’t forgive him because it’s not that simple. He asked my mother to allow his brother who just came from the province to stay in the extra room of our house. Because it would be rude to say no and they didn’t have the money to rent a place, we said yes. A few days later, we discovered that this brother of him is one of the most wanted criminals in Iloilo! Having killed a man and raped two young girls, he is a notorious guy who could have massacred us while we were sleeping! Imagine living with a murderer/rapist under one roof? He didn’t harm us in any way but we immediately reported him to the police. Unfortunately, he escaped and is not found until today.
• Plastic Girl there is no story to share except for the fact that she is made of pure plastic, the most elastic material for that matter. Her being nice is just a fake facade because when you’re not looking, she’d spread ugly comments about you. I am generally not affected with her kind, but I considered her a friend. That is the main problem, I thought she was a friend. Then I learned the ugly truth and now she is nothing to me but a piece of plastic thing that deserves none of my attention. We never fought tho. We have always been civil towards each other. But I know her true colors and there is no way I will ever trust her again. Somehow, I can’t help but to get annoyed when people tell she’s nice and all. They have no idea because she’s sweet and friendly in front of them, but I heard this plastic girl say nasty words about them too at their back. I’m just not in the position to reveal her dark side.
• Ugly Paranoid Well, I hate you for one reason and it’s not because you are jobless and a parasite to your family. I don’t give a damn sh*t if you don’t want to work and you only want to depend on your cousins and father. I hate you not because you are a drug addict, a chain smoker and an alcoholic. I don’t care a bit if you want to kill yourself today or anytime as it pleases you. I mean, go on it’s your f*ing life anyway and you could commit suicide today and nobody would care except for your pitiful parents. Look here, it doesn’t matter to me if you are particularly angry at me. I just told you the entire truth and you cannot accept it because you are a COWARD! You even threatened to hurt me or murder me. Whatever! I’m not scared. I will tell you again and again that you are WORTHLESS! And I hate you for only one reason. It breaks my heart seeing two of my loved ones suffer greatly because of you.
• Money-eater Oh well. I hope she’d be able to bring all her wealth and riches in her graveyard. I heard, the mother-in-law was borrowing money from her last year and she turned her down because the old lady said she cannot afford the interest rate. Apparently, her husband’s mother is suffering from diabetes and that money is supposed to be used for her medication. That’s what I heard them say. Now the old lady is dead and she paid for the coffin and the burial services. She’s very proud y’know. She was even quoted as saying “it’s a nice feeling to help the needy.” She’s not a human being. For me she’s a monster. And why am I so affected by the way? Search my old posts and you might find our story. But as I’ve said this is just a waste of time so why bother?

I am considering if I should add in my list those people who don’t know how to pay their debts. But they, too, are worthless. And please stop preaching about love love love because the next person who will tell me about that f*ing love will regret the day she was born.

Sometimes when Christian friends tell me about forgiving and loving, I want to puke. They are all plastic. It’s easy for them to say those things because they never experienced what I have gone through. Their lives have always been full of roses and daisies.

It’s easy to be nice and generous when you have everything in life. It’s easy to say the kindest words when you are not in pain and all your beloved are doing well. It’s easy for them to tell me to just forgive and forget because they are not in my shoes.

This is what I know. Being a Christian doesn’t mean that I will never get angry. And though I understand that He wants me to spread love and to forgive those who have hurt me, I am still a human being! I am weak. Therefore I need time to think, to heal, to let go, to learn to trust again, blah blah blah. Everything is a process.

I might be wrong. No … Yes, I am wrong. It’s easier to be generous when you know how it feels to have nothing. It’s easier to share comforting words when you know how it feels to be in pain. But don’t tell me to just forgive and forget because that’s just plain bullsh*t.